Damn Prometrium!!!

I’ve caved. *hangs head in shame*

I think Prometrium is the devil in a bottle because it’s giving me all these side effects that mimic pregnancy symptoms and it’s getting to me. You know, the abdominal cramping, headache, super sore boobs, moodiness, fatigue. Arghh!!! Then I made the big mistake of googling and lurking on The Bump’s 1st Trimester board. What is wrong with me? Now I’m itching to go buy a pregnancy test. I’m 12dpIUI, and according to some of those girls, they got a BFP at 10dpo.

Now I’m scared that it’ll be negative and I’ll be bummed for the rest of the day. I hate IF!

Where I Wanna Be Wednesday......

Bora, Bora Tahiti

Cruising Along!

9dpIUI, and it went by pretty fast. I must say that I’ve done good so far in this 2ww. I haven’t picked out any baby names, browsed any baby sites, or bought any baby items. Well, I did buy a cute little tiger for little Sebastian (my sister’s unborn) who should be gracing us with his presence in a couple weeks. Speaking of which, I still have to finish up his nursery. Yeah, I’m the one in the family with the decorative gene, well, I did kind of get it from my mom. I’ll post a pix once it’s done. Mr. M is actually surprised that I’ve been able to host her baby shower and decorate the baby’s room. I’m just pushing myself to be strong through her pregnancy.

My sister asked me a while back to be in the delivery room with her, and I was a bit hesitant at first. I already know that’s going to be a tough day for me. I asked the Ladies from ‘The Bump’ what they would do in that situation, and most said that it’s a special moment that they would not miss. Others felt similar to how I felt, and said they would opt out. But at the end of the day, if I’m not there, she will never forgive me for that. So I’ve decided to swallow that hard pill and be there. I might have to excuse myself a couple times and I’m sure there will be some tears, but I’m stronger than IF, so I won’t let it rob me of that moment.

I haven’t really felt any different from the day I did the IUI. No strange pains or anything. I little bit of twitching here and there, and the regular sore boobs, but nothing that would stand out to say, hey, that feels like implantation or something. Makes me wonder if anything’s even moving or working in there. I know it’s early, but I somewhat expected to feel a little different. No change to me means expect AF. But, I’m still hoping and praying that this is it for us.

Hopefully this week goes by quickly and I don’t lose it in the last few days.

IUI #3

See, this is the reason why I don’t make resolutions for the new year. I’m already not meeting any of the goals I’ve set for this year. *sigh*

Let me start by saying, Happy New Year! I hope the new year has been good to everyone so far. I rang in the new year surrounded by babies and toddlers running around. If that isn’t a good sign about 2012 being my year to get KU, then I don’t know what is. But I digress.

So, IUI#3 is done! This cycle was coupled with 5 days of Clomid at 50mg and 1 day of Menopur injection at 75IU. I took Clomid on CD4 thru CD8,  and did the Menopur shot on CD9. The Menopur shot did sting a bit for a while, but it wasn’t anything unbearable. I’m just glad that I only had to do that for one night, because I quickly realized that I was a wuss and couldn’t give myself the shot, so I had to call in Mr. M to help me out. I definitely couldn't be a junkie.

Went in for monitoring on CD12. The tech who did the ultrasound kept rotating that damn dildo cam like it was a toy. She said that since it was my first time doing an U/S with them, she had to get all angles for my record. And she proceeded to tell me that I had a fibroid which would explain why I was feeling pain. I’m not sure how this is possible since I just had surgery in November and there was no mention of this. Plus, I highly doubt that a fibroid could have grown in that short a time where it would already be visible. When the nurse called me back with the measurements they mentioned nothing about fibroids, so I’ll just ignore that tidbit. Anyhoo, the left ovary showed two follicles measuring 14mm and 8mm; right side showed three follies measuring 7mm, 12mm, and 15mm. I thought those were not yet mature, but I was told to trigger that night at 10pm. Apparently they consider the 14mm and 15mm follies mature.

Triggered that night with Ovidrel, which wasn’t too bad, but once again I couldn’t give myself the shot.

We went in at 8:30am Saturday morning so that Mr. M could give his sample. Went downstairs to the hospital cafeteria and had breakfast, which was actually cheap and pretty good, and then went back at 10am for the transfer. For some reason this hurt like crazy. I didn’t feel a thing with my first IUI. With the second one, I could actually feel the catheter, but nothing painful. With this one, I was hurting from the moment she positioned the speculum. And I cried out in pain when she inserted the catheter. I have no idea why this happened. I was cramping the entire day. I laid there for about 10 minutes, got dressed, went home, and slept for a couple hours.

So, here we are at 2 days past IUI (2dpIUI). I am to start using the Prometrium (progesterone supplements) tomorrow. This will hopefully help to thicken my lining for implantation. My instruction is to insert 1 capsule three times daily. I can already foresee that getting very messy, so I’ve stocked up on liners. And I’m also not too thrilled about having to do one in the middle of the day while I’m at work, but, I have to do what it takes. I don’t think any part of this process is fun.